In sickness and in health. Yes, I uttered those words and I meant them with all my heart. They were easy to say before I developed this autoimmune disease that has claimed me as its own for life.
Living with an autoimmune disease (hashimotos in my case) will change you. It will make you tough as nails. If your not careful it will also make you selfish, thinking only of your own pain.
This post today is dedicated not to you, but to the one's that love you. To the one's that stand by your side and listen to you vent on the hard days. Be it your husband,wife, boyfriend,girlfriend, best friend, mother , father, sister or brother. To the one's that pick you up off the ground and tell you, you wont be sick forever.
How about your friends- the one's that continue to care about you even though you feel too crummy to go out on a friday night ? Or your family? Maybe they have stopped bringing gluten into the home because they don't want to put you at risk. Maybe they have even gone gluten free with you!
Hashimoto's has tried to change my personality. Some days it makes me low, and other times extremely irritable and short tempered. Prior to this disease I was always happy, always positive and generally quite calm. That's the girl I was when my husband said I do. Little did he know what he was getting into. Bet he had no clue he was going to have to help provide heaps of money for supplements, expense big grocery bills to keep the house stocked with the limited food I can eat. Bet he didn't know I would stop buying all of his favorite foods- so they weren't a temptation to me sitting in the cupboards.
You know what I'm most thankful for? The fact that he doesn't judge me. I can tell him that pine nuts made me really sick and he won't bat an eye or think I'm crazy. I know I must sound crazy when I run off the long list of foods that cause autoimmune attacks for me. He believes me, and knows I'm not just making it all up. Thats a gift.
Chronic Illness can destroy a marriage, a friendship. Don't let it. Just because you are sick does not mean people owe you kindness. Take the time to say thank you, take the time to say sorry when you have been over-reactive or short temppered because you weren't feeling the best that day. Take the time to count your blessings.
Your chronic illness can make your relationships stronger, make YOU stronger, teach you to structure your life and make better decisions,teach you to eat healthier, teach you to advocate for yourself. It can be the biggest blessing of your life. You just have to let go of feeling sorry for yourself day in and day out. As long as you keep on the journey to find better health- you will! Keep Peddling.