Tuesday. August 16th. I sat waiting like I have hundreds of times for test results. But I knew that day would be different.. knew it in my gut. I knew exactly what was wrong with me- I had known 2 years ago but had been dismissed by several doctors.
Hypothyroidism- with a touch of Hashimoto's.
Words that evoke so much emotion and happiness. Odd I know to celebrate the diagnosis of a lifelong disease. I held it together so well until the moment the doctor left the room. Tears of relief and happiness started to flow. It felt like a dream as I texted the family and friends closest to me with my "happy" news.
3 1/2 weeks ago I went in for extensive blood work. They took from me what felt like 7 GIANT viles. I nearly passed out and then.. didn't recover. As the days wen't on I became weaker, I couldn't focus, think, even my vision was weird. Every joint and muscle in my body ached as if I had the flu. Coupled with a lingering sore throat, my hands and feet freezing cold, my appetite gone, my digestion worse than ever. My baking and general productivity slowed to a snails pace- until I just gave up and decided to stop feeling guilty for not hammering out 10 new recipes in a weeks time.
If I have learned anything over the past few years- Its been that you usually have to hit rock bottom before you can work your way up. Hitting bottom is a gift- it strengthens your appreciation for the answers, it forces you to question, learn and to grow as an individual.
Technically- had I seen this same doctor 2 years prior I would have gotten a diagnosis then. BUT had this happened- Real Sustenance would have never become a reality. I wouldn't have learned half of what I know or met so many wonderful people. I have no regrets- only appreciation for all that is.
Today for the first time in a month I felt well enough to cook dinner for my husband. It was so therapeutic and I could see the appreciation in his eyes. I know more than anything he was just so happy to see me back in my element. I prepared a Middle Eastern Style Stuffed Cabbage. Which I enjoyed with a side of Vitamin D, B-12 and Iron.
On Tuesday, August 16th my life was given back to me. I now know exactly how to mend.
Don't ever stop looking for your answers. They can ALWAYS be found.
In the months to come I'll be sharing a bouquet of information around Thyroid Disorders!
Extra big XO,
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